Sweets Memory

ADDENDA:

Over the ice cream cone after lunch #2 today, I was thinking about my sweet tooth, which impresses Ilsa so strongly. Part of it is physiological, undoubtedly, but part of it is emotional, going back to the gooey Parental memories. I only have really strongly positive and really strongly negative memories when it comes to sweets. I remember going to Clove Lake Park with my mom and brother when I was a little kid and she got us soft-serve ice cream cones. I remember mine was a swirl of chocolate and vanilla, and absolutely huge, as big as my head, and I ate every bite. Another was again with my mom and brother, outside of a shopping strip, and a woman was giving out free samples of Twix, which was a new candy bar then. I remember sitting in the car with my mom and brother, eating those small candy bars, wishing I had another but really enjoying it - a candy bar not only with the approval of my mom, but actually eating one with her.

I guess those are really the only two purely positive memories of sweets. Most of my memories involve sneaking cookies and brownies from the cupboard, and hoping my parents wouldn't find out. And I remember finding my dad's stash of candy and chocolate in his office at the top of our house - it had the same excitement as finding a stash of porn (but that's a conversation for a different kind of blog, he he). He too had a massive sweet tooth that my mom didn't approve of or indulge. My dad had vague memories of the sweet shops of his childhood in Vienna, which are famous for all sorts of cream cakes and tarts. I snuck candy (sno-caps: my first encounter with dark chocolate!) from my dad's shelf. Chocolate, sweets craving, love, guilt, all mixed in a sloppy stew.

BREAKFAST: 8:30am, toasted sesame bagel with hummus, hunger 4/5. Woke up hungry, thought about making the last of the bacon but felt lazy. Wanted something heavy, realized I was out of oatmeal. Wah! Mmmm, oatmeal with butter n' bacon!!

AM SNACK: 11am, 24 oz water, mint, hunger 3/5. How is an altoid any different than a lifesaver, really? They're like the rounds left over from making the holes in the lifesavers.

LUNCH #1: 12:15pm, large green salad n' dressing, hunger 4/5. Brought in from home

LUNCH #2: 1:15pm, lamb pita and a chocolate cone, hunger 4/5. From my favorite cart on 45th and 6th, where the chef used to cook at the Russian Tea Room. I was paying attention to it's flavor - it tastes VERY strong and full bodied and, uh, tasty, but only tastes a little salty. Does this mean it has only a little salt in it, or was it the hand of skilled chef who used a large amount of salt appropriately?

PM SNACK: 4:45, samosa chat, hunger 4/5. After making plans to go to Whole Food to pick up groceries and make a healthy fun dinner for me & B, I realized it would be almost 4 hours till then, so I went out looking for something more than a snack, less than a meal. First thing that popped into my mind was PIZZA, but then I thought I should save the indulgence for salty 'za when the 'za is something special, not just to get me through the day. The second thought was FRIES, from McDonalds, very convenient if not a little evil, then I remembered fries have been sacrificed. So I went by the Indian joint on 46th, usually packed out with people, nice and empty - so I ordered something from the kitchen instead of the trays. Two fried potato samosa with chickpeas in a weird white sweetish and red vinegar sauce. Still felt hungry after eating it, thought of more ice cream or a cookie. Ten minutes later, it passed.

DINNER: 7:45pm, breaded sea scallops with bacon, steamed asparagus, corn on the cob, small bowl gelato, hunger 4/5. Went a-shoppin' at Whole Foods and got asparagus, and sweet corn too as a backup incase it wasn't good. Found simple directions online, steamed the aspargus for 10 minutes. The first few spears were ok to good, but I noticed they got mushier as they sat on the plate - AH, that's why they give this kind of stuff an ice bath on TV! The corn is in season and amazing, I could eat it everyday. I think I just might try that....corn n' mints all day long....I found a recipe for baked sea scallops on line, which involved an egg and bacon - two ingredients I had. Made the bread crumbs in the blender with a roll, they came out really good, a lot of fun to make. No salt in the recipe, other than what came off the lower-sodium bacon.

EVENING SNACK: 10pm, small bowl gelator, hunger 3/5. I wasn't in the mood for sweet right after dinner, but Betsy HAD to have some, so I ate along with her. A few hours later, I was in the mood. Dulche de Leche flavor, oh my.

EVENING SNACK: 11pm, small amount of saltless pretzels, hunger 2/5. Why did I eat this? I was feeling restless....