Saturday, March 6

The Siren's Call

Edie had some dramatic moments between 9 and midnight, which I took care of while B slept. Still, though I wasn't hungry, I wasn't full either, and the call of the chocolate ice cream in the freezer was calling to me. "Oooo, Norbert, you so sassy. Donchu just want to put me in yo mouf, and wiggle me around? Bow chicka wow wow!" Some how, I resisted it's siren call.

Woke up hungry, hungrier than usual, due to last night's sninner, I suppose. A large part of the eating day would be out of my direct control, so I added a banana to the whole-grain granola. The eating day didn't go too bad. Other than a small bowl of pasta, I was relatively in Brown's rules. I was going to make a big dinner of waffles, fish and kale, but I just wasn't hungry enough.

BREAKFAST: 8am, homemade granola in organic dead milk, banana, 1 bowl, hunger 4/5

AM SNACK:
11:30am, home-roasted almonds, a small piece of challah

LUNCH: 1:30pm, 1 piece of Italian bread, small salad, appetizer portion of ziti in red sauce, fillet of flounder in wine sauce with potato and steamed carrots, string beans and broc, water, 1 bowl, hunger 4/5

PM SNACK: 4pm, school-made salsa with whole grain tortilla chips, .5 bowl, hunger 4/5

DINNER: 8:15pm, slice of demi-hippy bread with good peanut butter, .5 bowl, hunger 4/5

EVENING SNACK: 10pm, handful of roasted almonds

Friday, March 5

Sninner

I think I negotiated the day well today. I think I'm going to post an interpretation of Alton Brown's plan for eating as a side bar, as I'm starting to refer to it over and over again, but the casual reader wouldn't have a clue to what I'm talking about.

On the way home from a late lunch, stopped by the local humungo supermarket and poked around. I picked up a couple of cans of....sardines. Brown went on and on about the nutritional power of these buggers, and I really really hope I like them. A simple preparation with parsley and vinegar, garnished with avocado on whole wheat bread is in my future...

BREAKFAST: 10:15am, organic chex with organic dead milk, .75 bowl, hunger 4/5
Inspected the ingredients of the cereal -- about 7 different grains, all whole, well within the comfort zone of B's rules of whole grains every day.

AM SNACK: 11am, slice of fresh pineapple
Cut up a whole pineapple for B and ate some. Inoffensive, but not great. Hints of vanilla.

PM SNACK: 1pm, baby carrots and cucumber, lightly salted, 5 bowl, hunger 4/5

LUNCH: 2:45pm, vegetarian dim sum, including mixed gluten, mashed tarro treasure boxes, mini sticky rice wrapped in lotus leafs, monk dumplings, tea, water, 1.75 bowl, hunger 5/5
After doing chores, not much else to do except be hungry. Bundle Edie up in the stroller and made our way to Veg Dim Sum. I ordered 4 dishes, thinking I was exhibiting control, but it was on the edge of too much food. Going solo, I gotta remember to limit to 3, which is less fun but really, now. Brown's rules area bit agnostic on this meal, except maybe for the tea, though I don't think it was green.

PM SNACK:
5pm, frozen smoothie bomb pop, .25 bowl, hunger 3/5

SNINNER: 9pm, school-made salsa and "whole grain" tortilla chips, 1 bowl, hunger 4/5
Sninner: somewhere between a snack and a dinner! What exactly is "whole grain" tortilla chips? The ingredients are whole-kernel white corn, oil and salt. The texture was slightly grittier than the usual, but if I didn't know it was "whole grain", I wouldn't have noticed. I counted three whole-grain tortilla chips on the supermarket shelf, and all had the same ingredients. I only chose mine (Bachmann's) because it was the smallest (NYS as opposed to national) brand and had the least amount of fat per serving (though not by much.)

The salsa made in school was a bit lame, but we made it to demo knife skills, not make the best salsa in the world (and because the kids had only had cooked jarred salsas in the past, for them it WAS the best salsa!) Tomato, onion, jalapeno, onion, cilantro and tomato juice (ingredients: tomato, a few preservatives, salt), red wine vinegar, salt. No fat. So this sninner fit well within Brown's rules of order -- whole grain, lots of vegetable.

Thursday, March 4

Katz in half

Spent the morning eating righteously, because I knew the balance of the day would be on thin ice. Edie & I met up with Cousin Jenni, in from Canada for a Bar Mitzvah we're attending this weekend. We met up at Katz's, because Jews can't get good deli in Canada (smoked meat my ass!) We split a meal that most people regard is a meal for one -- a pastrami sandwich, an order of fries. The plates are small but heaping. The customers in the cafeteria-style dining room reminded me of the people we saw in restaurants in Michigan -- large, overweight people, eating plates of large quantities of food. I would go to Katz's more often, but they don't sell half-portions.

In the evening, it was all about entertaining, not necessarily eating healthily. On the way home, we decided to pick something up fun that was of the neighborhood -- donuts from our increasingly famous local donut shop. Of course, when B got home about an hour later, she brings home....a big box of donuts. Great minds (and hungry stomachs) think alike.

So according to Brown's rules, I ate THREE once-a-week items -- red meat, pasta and desert. -sigh-. I was thinking maybe I should be much more strict 6 days a week, and go nuts once a week, but that doesn't make any sense -- that would turn this effort into a diet, rather than a lifestyle change. There needs to be flexibility and not a lot of self-loathing.

BREAKFAST: 9am, momma-style Israeli salad, .5 bowl, hunger 4/5
Baby carrots, cucumber chunks, a wedge of red pepper, a bit of Alpine-carraway cheese, hummus.

AM SNACK:
10:15am, handful of red grapes.
After writing up yesterday's report about the surprising deliciousness of grapes, it made me hungry for something sweet....and there just happened to be grapes in the house! Not nearly as good as yesterday's. I guess that's to be expected when the fruit is out of season and imported from Chile.

AM SNACK: 10:45am, home-roasted gingersoy almonds, .25 bowl, hunger 4/5
Still hungry. Makes me think I need to make granola soon (as that is definitely both a) whole grains and b) chock full o' nuts)

LUNCH: 1pm, half a pastrami sandwich, half an order of fries, a small handful of pickles, water, 1 bowl, hunger 4/5

DINNER: 7pm, homemade pasta with homemade tomato sauce, a little bit of cooked spinach, about 1.5 donuts, water, 1.5 bowl, hunger 4/5

EVENING SNACK: 9pm, left over pasta in sauce, .75 bowl, hunger 4/5
I found myself hungry after Jenni had left and the ladies had gone to sleep. My first move was to go for the homemade chocolate ice cream, but after thinking, realized that would be a second desert when I should be somewhere between once a week (B's rules) and one a day (for now, N's rules). So I ate the leftovers -- rather than a separate thing, just a continuation of dinner. Or at least that's how I rationalized it...

Wednesday, March 3

Grapes of Deliciousness

It's not a diet, as in something extreme that drops weight fast, then becomes intolerable and you gain all the weight back. It's a diet, as in the eating aspect of a lifestyle. Rome wasn't built in a day. I have plans to share a pastrami sandwich tomorrow, the once-a-week red meat, and their may be some home-made chili later in the week, but I can't really beat myself up about it. Though if it were up to the HVS, I'd beet myself up.

In the 30 minute program (which I've saved for review), Brown doesn't give a huge dissertation, and gives just a skeleton guideline -- rather than try to hold hands and answer every single dorky question, it's assumed that anyone who absorbs this information has a modicum of common sense (which makes the program all the more remarkable.) He limits red meat to once a week, and big-ups oily fish to a minimum of 3 times a week, but where does other meat and fish fall? Chicken and shrimp are neither every day or forbidden. I'm going to play the common-sense card and say 3 times a week, in 8-oz or less quantities per serving.

BREAKFAST: 8:45am, organic cheerios with organic dead milk, smoothie bomb pop, 1 bowl, hunger 4/5
Checked the cheerios ingredients, indeed the first three ingredients are whole grains, falling well into the everyday category. Dairy isn't categorized, but in this case it's a vehicle for the whole grain product, as it is a vehicle for the consistency of the smoothie and the pop I made out of it.

AM SNACK: 10:30am, roasted almonds, .25 bowl, hunger 4/5

LUNCH: noon, brown mushroom rice and spinach, .75 bowl, hunger 3/5

PM SNACK: 2:30pm, 2 handfuls of red seedless grapes, banana
Setting up class, shuttling in between the supply closet and the kitchen. Started to get hungry, and a BIG ASS BOX of individually wrapped portions of Famous Amos chocolate chip cookies caught my eye. I could eat the hell out of a few of those right now, but....it's both dessert (1 a week) and a processed junk food (forbidden) (Brown's Rules) and it's a non-homemade dessert corporate junk food (lame) and a dessert in general (3 a week) (Noah's Rules). We were making smoothies today, and I knew we had fresh grapes and bananas in stock.... so I grabbed a handful of grapes, washed them, closed my eyes and thought of the Queen, and threw them back. Just like my week of fruit tastings, I was surprised again just how pleasant and easy these things were to eat. What up with dat? Why do I have this loop in my head saying fruit is yukky, when I know rationally it's pretty rocking?

PM TASTINGS: 5-6pm, a few spoonfuls of various fruit smoothies, a few spoonfuls of salsa, a handful of chips, snips of 5 different cheeses, a few apple slices, a few bread slices, a juice drink, 1 bowl, hunger 4/5

DINNER: 6:30pm, half a beer, 2 small slices of pizza, .75 bowl, hunger 4/5
At the restaurant sharing food with the staff. I was offered a Manhattan Special, which is both soda pop (B-verboten) and too late to have a megadose of caffeine (N-tortuous sleeplessness), so I went with about 4 oz of tap beer (B-once a week) but N-will assist in winding down.

EVENING WATERING: 8:30pm, a liter

EVENING SNACK: 9pm, coffee cake, .75 bowl, hunger 4/5
This cake was given to us from a neighbor, for Purim. I just got hungry and itchy, and B left it out on the counter, all naked and exposed, it was just ASKING for it. OK, it broke all the rules, but I'm easing into this lifestyle thing, not all-or-nothing. And it wasn't very good.

Tuesday, March 2

My call to action...from television



Spring is springing, I can just feel it. Felt run down last night. Had some weird-ass dreams. (More on that below for those who care *) Before bed, I watched some TV, including my favorite cooking show, "Good Eats". The show took a left turn, and did an episode on weight loss via nutritional strategy. Usually the show is pretty religious about being about food, the technique and the science behind it. This time it started with a personal message from the host, about realizing that he was porker and set about doing something about it, following the rigor and logic that defines his philosophy. He dropped 50 pounds in 9 months, while producing his show and being a Food Network personality. Makes me pause.

He breaks it down into 4 lists.
  • First list is stuff you can eat every day in whatever quantity you want. The usual suspects are here, like fruit, veg, nuts and whole grains.
  • The second list is stuff that should be eaten a minimum of 3 times a week - oily fish, yogurt, broccoli, sweet potato and avocado.
  • The third list is stuff allowed only 1 time a week -- unlike the first two lists (more the merrier), this list calls for reduction, not addition - red meat, pasta, dessert, alcohol. Red meat and alcohol no problem, but desert and pasta once a week? Oof.
  • The fourth list is forbidden -- fast food, soda pop, processed meals, canned soups and anything "diet", a.k.a. artificially sweetened foods and reduced fat products that always taste crappier than the real thing.
I know desert once a week is not a realistic goal for me, but right now I'm hitting dessert 2x a day, the default position for my sweet tooth. It's not an all-or-nothing thing, I think I can adapt Brown's thinking to a workable plan for myself. Cutting dessert to three-times-a-week would probably make a pretty large impact.

Definitely gonna make some of the recipes from this episodes, where he focuses on the nutritional "super foods" that will prop up a diet based on the 4 lists. He roasted some almonds with some funky marinades which I'm quite certain will make B's toes curl (in a good way!) The sardines, I haven't really tried seriously since c-school, and in not very healthful applications, though I think I may have another go. And maybe some fresh mackerel, too...

BREAKFAST: 8:45am, smoothie, 1 bowl, hunger 4/5
One of the "ah hah!" moments in the Good Eats episode last night was when Alton advised that making extra breakfast smoothie is recommended as a snack -- simply freeze into pop formation and all the nutrition that is packed into it can be snacked on instead of ice cream at a later point. Duh! I've been tossing a few bits of smoothie out here and there because B doesn't eat berries, and it starts changing colors and getting funky after 30 minutes. I have these bomb-pop molds sitting in the cupboard for years, after freezing some juice and finding them lacking. So today I froze 4 pops using the overrun. Hmmm. Between the banana and the yogurt in this concoction, I wonder if this is the right consistency to make a very healthy ice cream...

LUNCH: 12:30pm, spinach over brown rice, smoothie bomb pop, 1.25 bowl, hunger 4/5
Cooked up short grain brown rice in the rice cooker with plenty of chopped dried mushrooms, bay leaves, homemade chicken stock, a little cayenne, a little too much salt, black pepper and butter. Half a bag of frozen chopped spinach sauteed with a little stock, a little olive oil, crushed garlic and a little salt. A meal of whole grains and vegetable -- well within the every-day list. Not low-fat, or low anything, or even vegetarian, but nutritionally powerful...and very tasty.

Tried the frozen smoothie...definitely looses a little sweetness in the freezing, and it grew large crystals, giving it an unpleasant crunch. BUT it was satisfying enough to curb my urge to tuck into the chocolate ice cream in the freezer....

PM SNACK: 2:30pm, three small squares of bar - lemon, cherry jam and brownie

PM SNACK: 5:30pm, handful of pistachios, a few cashews, a handful of popcorn

DINNER: 9:30pm, 2 crab cake sandwiches on whole wheat and whole grain mustard, baby carrots, water, 1.25 bowl, hunger 4/5
After a Food Coop meeting, hit up the supermarket for some supplies. Trying to put together dinner that met the lists, but would come together fast -- it was getting late. Whole wheat bread, a bag of baby carrots, and some fish cakes out of the fish department. They were ok, but makes me think I should make my own -- it's be a hella lot cheaper, a hella lot more fish and less filler, and probably a lot less salt, and I'll be able to freeze a bunch.

EVENING SNACK: 10:45pm, handful of freshly roasted almonds
Whipped these almonds out, not a big a flavor as I hoped. Smelled good, but missing something.


*I dreamt that Betsy had found some super-8 films of my parents and my family from my youth (which don't exist - my parents did not document anything in the filmic format), and secretly transferred them to DVD. The dream is B presenting them, then I sat down in the living room to watch them. The first footage is early 70s, I'm a baby, my mom has long hair, wearing a 1 piece bathing suit on the beach by the water, wearing garish early 70s makeup. I'm by her feet, looking awfully Edie-like. The second part of the footage is early-mid eighties, mom's hair is short, my hair is afro-like, and she's wearing much more conservative clothing, she's in an office, a little bit heavier.

The final part of the dream is I'm at the SI Ferry, waiting for my mom to come out of the bathroom. I'm now an adult and she's elderly. Instead of mom, my dad come out, and then I remember that my mom had passed away and I was looking after my dad (though in reality, the opposite happened.) As we did in his retired years, we walked off arm-in-arm. He needed the support, and he didn't like using a cane, and I really enjoyed strolling with him like that, like we were to Middle-Eastern best friends. Anyhoo...

Monday, March 1

Feelign wobbly

Woke up feeling a little tired, which is not unusual (especially since the baby came), but my energy level never really lifted too far after the morning. Woke at 8:30 with last night's pizza still sitting in the stomach. Got the laundry done, Edie napped and fed, then took off to Union Square to visit the farmer's market and pick up some baby supplies. Got Edie on a swing for a few minutes.

By the time I we got home, I was hungry for lunch, though my appetite seemed to be behind schedule. By 4, Edie was cranky and fell asleep on my stomach, which lulled me to sleep. When B got home around 5, we woke up, and I felt discombobulated. I was supposed to go to a CSA meeting in the neighborhood, as well as do some food coop and restaurant work at home, but just pushed it off.

I weighed myself this morning, last time doing it at the beginning of February. I weight 235.4, about a pound or so heavier. Statistically, a meaningless increase. The HVS's challenge was to put more fruit and veg in the diet, but it's FEBRUARY -- it's literally unnatural to eat more fruit and veg at this time of year. That said, my bike is coming back from the shop soon, and a once to twice a week ride combined with weights at home, maybe a random yoga class and more fruit and veg to push out the heavier stuff is something to focus on now, not next week. A lot of good stuff will be back in season in the next 8 weeks, and come June 1st, I'll be confronted with an interesting challenge that may be the basis for revising this blog: cooking and eating everything I get from the CSA I just signed up for every week....

BREAKFAST: 10:30am, toasted bagel with creamcheese, .75 bowl, hunger 4/5

LUNCH:
3pm, small green salad, 2 fishsticks, mini cheese raviolis with homemade sauce, 1.25 bowl, hunger 4/5

DINNER: 8pm, 1 French bread pizza, .75 bowl, hunger 4/5

EVENING SNACK: 10pm, 2 graham crackers with peanut butter and a little bit of chocolate on top, .5 bowl, hunger 4/5

Sunday, February 28

Particularly non-desiring

It's the last day of February, and next month Spring will spring. Today was a good day with the wifey and bebe, with special guest spots from a variety of friends.

BREAKFAST: 8:30am, homemade granola with milk, .75 bowl, hunger 4/5

LUNCH: 11am, mac n' cheese with bacon, bite of biscuit, small cup of ice cream, water, 1 bowl, hunger 4/5
A disappointing lunch at Tiny Giant -- I don't know why rumors of places like this persist that they are good -- they are twee, pretentious and while the food is pretty, actually doesn't taste like much of anything.

DINNER: 5:30pm, homemade smoked-moz pizza, water, chocolate ice cream, 1.25 bowl, hunger 4/5
HVS came over to Edie-sit, so I plied her with vegan pan pizza and stuff.

EVENING SNORT: 8pm, 1 beer
Out with B and a friend at a concert. Wasn't particularly desiring a beer, but on the rare occasion of going out at night with B & friends without the tether of Lil' Mz Edie, it seemed appropriate.

EVENING SNACK: 11pm, half a cold homemade pizza, grape soda, 1 bowl, hunger 4/5
Felt hungry and a little buzzy, odd.