Friday, July 20

NYC: Home of the 1am Slice of Pizza

ADDENDA:
Despite not getting to be till 1 last night, still got a good night sleep thanks to the new bed. Found myself craving pizza after those crappy shrimp dumplings. Is not getting dressed and going out and hunting down a 1am slice denying myself? Or just sane?

BREAKFAST: 8am, toasted sesame bagel with the good butter, glass of seltzer. Hunger 3/5. New toaster! Felt more like bacon, but not special time yet.

LUNCH: 12:30pm, beef teriyaki bento box with shrimp and veg tempura, white rice, miso soup, water. Hunger 3/5. Headache before and after this meal. Eaten at this place before, always with Erikka and always out of convenience. It's just not that good, and thinking about it, incredibly salty. Out of convenience, I'll eat there again, but will forego the salty soup and stick with sushi and sashimi. As the old Jewish joke goes, the little old ladies complain about the food that not only is it awful, but such small portions. I just wasn't filled by this crappy meal, and kinda wanted something big and sweet immediately after, but decided to delay by an hour or two so the calories are spread more evenly through the day.

PM SNACK: 2pm, apple crumb cake, Hunger 2/5. Still desiring something sweet to 'finish' me though not horrendously hungry. Was gonna go chocolate but thought that may amp up my headache. From the lobby commisary, not very tasty as it should be but what are ya gonna do? BRING better food to work? That's just crazy tawk!

PM SNACK: 6pm, a glass of red wine, a handful of goldfish crackers, a couple of chocolates, 2 chocolate covered cookies, hunger 3/5. At a small gallery show of a friend and our wedding photographer. Offered the wine, didn't want or like it but wanted to be sociable. Hugnry, supposed to have dinner immediately after...

DINNER: 6:45pm, miso ramen soup with assorted pork, fish cakes. Hunger 4/5. Good Japanese, ironically next door to the Japanese place I ate lunch. Not a low salt meal, though I did try to choose the least evil ("salt-flavored soup" I skipped) Reqally enjoyable and filling, but being a restaurant where English is a second language, the menu didn't exactly say what the salt conent was.

EVENING SNACK: 10:30pm, chocolate ice cream cone from truck near subway station. Hunger 3/5. Hot night, feeling the urge for sweet on the way home.

Thursday, July 19

I Can't Believe It's Butter!

ADDENDA:
Last night's steak was very pleasurable, enjoyed it more than i thought i would - perhaps it was the context of the celebration and the warm vibes of two good friends catching up after a long time apart. The ladies ordered boring entrees - a seared tuna salad and a sauted salmon, zzzzzzz. Though they both claimed they were too full for desert, when my chocolate cake came they definitely had their share. So much so I had to go buy a couple of madelines after to get my sweets in.

Ilsa asked me to write in this journal not only what I'm eating, but what I want but choose not to eat. Thing is, I'm not one to really deny myself what I want. What I choose usually IS what I want. I don't know if this is self-delusion or something, but I don't feel like I've denied myself anything up to this point. Diet coke, whatever, it's nice but I don't miss it. Had a half glass of champagne last night, not because I was trying to be good but because I've never really liked alcohol, taste or how it makes me feel. Denying myself what I want is not fun, so should I really pick apart the subliminal process I've developed to let me feel like nothing is being denied? I guess self-knowledge is better than fear of upsetting the applecart.

This morning in the shower, NPR mentioned an upcoming interview with author Barbara Kingsolver on her book about eating locally, and how eating is one of those rare ocassions where acting ethically coincides directly with increased pleasure. Another argument for my grass-fed butter infatuation!

BREAKFAST: 7:45am Onion bagel with grass fed butter, pint of lime seltzer. Hunger 3/5. Felt good, good sleep on the new bed, though hunger did wake me up several times this morning - Rufus's hunger! He was meowing like he was James Brown. Ilsa has suggested trying flat water instead of so much carbonated water, I'm going to limit my seltzer intake on a trial basis, but it's an excellent breakfast treat. Now if they could carbonate bacon...

LUNCH: 1pm cajun seitan sandwich with kale, sauted onions on a whole wheat bun, a little vegan mayo (salty), a side of coleslaw, water. Hunger 3/5. Quiet at work, pedalled up through Central Park to Candle Cafe on the UES. Water they serve is only a little cooler than room temp, and many times before people have remarked on the yumminess of there water. I wonder if it's tap or filtered. Tasted OK to me. I was really happy with the sandwich, but upon thinking about my baser instincts, I probably would of chosen french fries instead of coleslaw, but the slaw was quite yummy.

PM SNACK: 2pm, 20oz tap water that was poured before I left for lunch. Not hungy but thirsty, rode hard to avoid rain. I see what Ilsa says about water having more flavor when its room temp, but not sure whether thats a plus or not. Don't mind it, though.

PM SNACK: 4:15pm, largish chocolate chip cookie icecream sandwich, 20 oz sill water, hunger 4/5. Craving sweets, and hadn't had an icecream sandwich in a while. "Toll House" brand, sold in the commisary in the lobby, everything about it screams industrial...but where does one go to get a handmade organic icecream sandwich when your craving it? 320mg of sodium, damn. Slight head ache before I decided to go get this.

DINNER: 6pm. medium green salad with italian dressing, pasta with basil pesto and grated cheese, glass of seltzer, a few small pieces of baking chocolate. hunger 2/5 - Not horrendously hungry after the icecream sandwich, but I was supposed to go to an early evening kareoke thing with coworkers and thought it unwise to go on anything other than a near-full stomach. Despite not being that hungry, the pasta was delicious, pesto from whole foods. I tried to make pesto once, it came out bitter and gross, I think I used too much basil and too little oil.

EVENING: 8pmish. 2 saporro drafts. To be social, didn't give me any buzz thanks to dinner, but did get me through a cringe-inducing renditon of "Into the Groove"

EVENING: Midnight. 7 frozen shrimp dumplings from a korean grocery. Hunger 3/5. Sleeping really well last 2 nights, but was slow winding down this evening, the alcohol probably didn't help. I have all those frozen dumplings from Koreatown, I sometimes crave them but after eating these dumpling, they ARE kinda gross and salty. And after reading about all the insanely underinspected food imports coming in from Asia, it adds to a layer of creepiness. Rather than use myself as a trash can, I think I'm going to clear some stuff out of the freezer this weekend.

Wednesday, July 18

Deny your God, Worship your Land

ADDENDA:
Met with Ilsa yesterday, a lot of food for thought (no pun, I swear). In the next two weeks, I hope to experiment with a few things. One, I gotta hit up some farmer's markets, whole foods or whatever and kind of graze and find some veg I haven't had before and take it home and, I dunno, slather it in that yummy butter or something. Secondly, I've never been one to subscribe to 'organic', but after reading the 'Real Food' book, there may be something to tradionally manufactured food - whole grass-fed milk instead of soy milk may be a fun experiment. Happy meat, happy diary, happy veg, happy fruit and grain - if environmentally sound food happens to taste better and make me feel better, I won't become an environmentalist but I will support it's cause. If I'm going to change my diet for the better, man or Land, it has to be ridiculously delicious.

Naming these entries by date is boring. A long time favorite muscian, Julian Cope, just put out a new record dripping in his usual anti-Religion, Druidistic rantings, but on the inside of the booklet is scrawled "DENY YOUR GOD, WORSHIP YOUR LAND". If denying God will get me nicely yellow delicious grass-fed butter, then there's something to the argument!

BREAKFAST: 7:30am, large bowl of kellogs cornflakes, unsweetened soy milk, hunger 3/5. Felt like having diner bacon and pancakes (I did get a Fresh Direct order yesterday with organic pancake mix and nitrate-free bacon which has sea-salt instead of salt as an ingredient) Looking forward to experimenting with non-salt non-corn syrup morning cereals. Waiting for the bed to come. No headache this morning, but as I sit here an hour after eating, it's there, very slightly. Gonna save the pancakes and bacon for when I have time and it's a treat, maybe before or aftering biking.

LUNCH: 12 noon, large green salad from home with dressing from the cafeteria, 2 sushi rolls from cafeteria, 20 oz of still water. Hunger 4/5
Used Balsamic dressing, seemed the least evil of the bunch but who knows whats in it. Should experiement with making my own dressings. Salad was good, sushi was ok, not that fresh, pretty standard. No dessert, but feel like I could tuck into a mess of chocolate chip cookies right now. Headache has returned about 45 minutes after eating, slow and dull. Ate early because I needed too, breakfast with no snacks is not enough to satisfy me to a more normal lunch hour.

PM SNACK: 1:30pm, packet of 3 fudge cookies, hunger 2/5.
Craved them. Sweetness, chocolate. Headache got stronger. After eating them, headache receded, though not completely. A blood sugar thing?

4:45pm, 25 cent handful of plain chocolate M&Ms. hunger 4.5/5. Just hungry, no headache. Going to Balthazar with B & her friend, wanted to save my appetite, but this is just uncomfortable. I guess if I had no discretion, would go out and get a slice of pizza or two. This should hold me till dinner, which I imagine will be big n' yummy.

DINNER: 6:30pm, medium rare bar steak with fries, small portions of lobster risotto, walnut herb ravioli, warm goat cheese tart, white and whole wheat bread n' butter, half a glass of champagne, a few glasses of water, about a 3rd of a warm chocolate cake, two chocolate madelines. hunger 4/5. Went to Balthazar with B and her friend Patty, who was visiting town on business from LA. A bit of a celebratory meal in honor of our impending nupitals, I conciously decided to not overthink what I was going to eat and go with what I was in the mood for. I tend not too eat steak too often, as it makes me feel crappy - I'm that concious of what I eat, at least. But I desired it. It tasted SO GOOD. No headache after. Slept excellently (on new bed, with new bride, he he) and though I worried the steak would catch up with me, had a good morning.

EVENING SNACK: a couple of glasses of still water

Tuesday, July 17

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

BREAKFAST: 8am, 3/4 of a toasted sesame bagel, slathered in the fancy organic butter, hunger 3/5.
This grass-fed yellowish butter definitely tastes more....buttery than the industrial white stuff. Had a hard time getting to sleep again last night, despite being tired. Things going well at work and at home, feel good.

AM SNACKS: 9:30am, ramakin of chocolate chocolate chip gelatto, hunger 3/5.
At home waiting for a new king-sized bed and matress to arrive, feeling idle, and Il Labratorio makes such intense stuff, just calling to me. Wouldn't of indulged if I was busy at work.

LUNCH: 1pm, falafel sandwich with babaganoush, diet 7up, hunger 3/5.
After waiting for a delivery of only the matress showed up, finally took off (bed now arriving tomorrow morning). Feeling frustrated, but happy not to be cooped up. Road bike to coop office to get another delivery pass, stopped in on Franks to check on mountain bike I got off a coworker that I'm having rebuilt, then stopped by 1st Ave and St. Marks to eat - it was lunch timeish, and it would be silly to go to work only to go out to lunch when I got there. Food decompressed me a little, a pause on a nice bike ride on a warm sunny afternoon. Too bad about the congestion pricing bill floundering, too much democracy in action...

LUNCH #2: 3:15pm, fried whiting sandwich on whole weat, let&tom, small squirt of italian dressing, hunger 3/5.
Despite being late, work flowing smoothly. Corporate caf closed, went to the vendor carts, decided to try something new. Corner of 47th and 6th, a cart said "FOOD IS LOVE" on it's side. The sandwich was $3.50, a plate was $5, so I got the sandwich....which had 3 large pieces of breaded fish on it! This small lunch was kinda large, but satisfying and I ate it all as I wandered slowly back to work. Headache coming on slow, dehydrated?

PM SNACKS: 4pm, 20 oz of seltzer out of the dispensery. Diet coke tempting, but I suspect it may give me a bigger headache right nw.

4:45pm. another 20oz of selter and a 25 cent handful of peanut M&Ms, not hungry but persistent minor headache and feeling munchy. Work is quiet. Is this blog going to turn me into one of those people who obsessively count their food? I had 10 m&ms, somehow counting them justified them as being truly a small amount. Now that I ate them, I feel full in a slightly sickly way. Bleah.

DINNER: 8:30pm, shrimp diavialo w linguini, half a small cheesless pizza, a couple pieces of bread, water, apple pie. Hunger 4/5. Dinner with Jill, after meeting with Ilsa. The original plan was to go to Shake Shack, but ended up at a less unhealthy Italian joint. Kinda wanted cheesy pizza but thought this a better comprimise, the wood-fired crust and the pleasantly uncloying sauce with a sprinkle of herbs was satisfying. There was gelatto on the menu for desert, but that seemed excessive. I tried a small spoonful of Jill's gelato, and I'm glad I skipped it, not nearly as good as Il Labratorio's! On the bike ride home, the low-grade headache came back.

NIGHT: Had a few glasses of water when I got home 10ish, was thirsty.

Monday, July 16

Monday, July 16

BREAKFAST: large piece of watermelon, 7:45am, hunger=2/5. No diet coke, could use some right now, but gotta kick it. No headache in the last few days. This watermelon kinda sucks. After dinner yesterday, me and B went to the supermarket to buy salad ingredients and this, it's just not sweet. Is the watermelon season over already?

A.M. SNACKS: 9:30qam, 20oz of seltzer, hunger=3, tired, the diet coke is calling to me, but there is no headache.

LUNCH: 1:30, hale & hearty roast beef sandwich, terra chips, 2 cookies, 20oz of selter hunger=4.5/5, was hungry for a while but meetings prevented me from going out earlier. Went to hale & hearty with coworkers, all the soups looked like salt traps. Really enjoyed the sandwich, probably because I was hungry and enjoyed the company.

DINNER: 8pm, large green salad with ranch dressing, Scallops with garlic, organic grass fed butter and extra v olive oil with a dash of worstechester & unrefined sea salt, 2 baked potatoes, lemon seltzer, chocolate choclate chip gelato. hunger 4/5.
Swung by Whole Foods on the way home, picked up the fish and salt and gelato and fancy butter. Cooking was fun and was nice to sit down with Betsy. Reading the 'Real Food' book (Nina Planck), the whole argument for traditional diet rich in meat and dairy, but traditionally produced (organic, grass-fed, unrefined, cooked simply) against modern, industrial food. Felt full, satisfied