Saturday, April 12

Money, Meet Mouth

BREAKFAST: 10am, 2 pancakes, 4 pieces bacon, 1 bowl, hunger 4/5
I had 4 pancakes on my plate, and as I was working into the 2nd one, realized I really didn't need to eat the other 2. Thinking of my mini-rant yesterday about global food shortages and a new American perspective on food, I've been wondering how I can put my money where my mouth is (figuratively and literally.) As for these pancakes, "Damn, this is enough pancake to serve 2...or have a 2nd meal!" So I plopped the two in a freezer bag and into the ice chest it went. It'll make an easy lighter breakfast later in the week, or a non-sweet snack at some point. It's from scratch, all organic with fresh milk, whole wheat, unrefined sugar etc etc, how insane would of it been to trash them.

LUNCH: 12:30, half a pastrami sandwich, half order of fries, pickles, 2 bowls, hunger 4/5
Easily could of eaten a whole sandwich and whole order of fries, but would of felt icky after. Everyone around me was packing in loads more, but the bacon and 2 pancakes were still with me.

DINNER: 7pm, shrimp in garlic sauce with black beans and yellow rice, spinach salad, water, 2.5 bowls, hunger 4/5
Ordered in on a quiet Saturday eve.

Friday, April 11

Poet's Walk

ADDENDA:
I've for a long time thought a lot of problems in this country could be solved if food wasn't so cheap. Now with the crap economy, we're on the verge of seeing food prices rise, I'm afraid more problems will be created world wide than solved locally, with food-riots in places where people already spend more than 50% of their incomes on getting fed. Yes, we'll eat out less, eat small portions and maybe not eat so wastefully, but must that be accompanied by people in other places starving? It makes me ill at ease, especially when I'm at the markets buying up the finest ingredients possible.

BREAKFAST: 9:30am, good yogurt with cashews, honey, and vanilla, 1 banana, .75 bowl, hunger 4/5

LUNCH: 1pm, lamb on pita, 1.5 bowl, hunger 4/5
After spending a few hours wrapping up a project in the offices, grabbed a lamb pita from the good vendor, with the real lamb and hand-made condiments. Sat in Central Park at the Poet's Walk while eating it and making phone calls. I used to sit here with my father every time we came to the park together, sit and read, be quiet, usually between a movie, museum or opera and a meal.

Soon after my father died, I dreamed that I came to this spot and he was there, elderly but in good health and able to walk on his own. We sat, and he apologized for dying, and said he already missed me and mom horrendously, and he thanked me and my mom for being so good to him in his last few years, when yes, we could of dumped him in a home but every effort was (successfully) made to allow him to spend his last months living in his own home. He said to look after myself and my mother, and then we hugged. As I squeezed him, I closed my eyes and -poof- out of my arms he dissipated like smoke. I woke up from that dream feeling a bit more settled about it, and I was happy I got to see him again. I've had a few dreams over the years where I've spoken with my parents, all conscious that they are dead.

I pedalled over to the Whitney to check out the Biennial, but the line was wrapped around the block. I was looking forward to checking out the Edward Hoppers, as he was my father's favorite painter and we would sit and stare at them together every time we were there.

PM SNACK: 2:15pm, shrimp summer roll, .75 bowl, hunger 4/5
Picked up ingredients for a dinner with B at WF, got this to hold me over till then.

PM SNACK: 5pm, shortbread, .5 bowl, hunger 4/5
Cooking up a storm, got hungry. Better to have sweets now than before bed.

DINNER: 7pm, spinach salad, a couple of raviolis, lasagna, half glass of white wine, water, 2 bowls, hunger 4/5
I made cheese & vegetable ravioli from scratch, which Betsy had, while I had the Dinnerfest meaty lasagna. The ravioli was good - fresh egg dough, the filling made up of ricotta, fresh moz, parm, spinach, sauteed & diced portabellos, chives, shallots, sun dried tomatoes, nutmeg, eggs, salt and pepper. I lightly sauteed the raviolis in olive oil, elephant garlic, more chives, white wine and lemon juice, came out really interesting (in a good way). Made enough raviolis to cover a couple of counter tops, drying a little before I bag them for the freezer. B tucked into chocolate soy ice cream, but I resisted...

PM SNACK: 9pm, veggie booty, .5 bowl, hunger 4/5

EVENING SNACK: 11pm, chocolate soy ice cream, .5 bowl, hunger 4/5
Serious sugar cravings, made me very cranky. I gave in.

Thursday, April 10

Bicycle: Taste Enhancer

ADDENDA:
My last mountain bike ride late fall ended with an exploded rear derailleur. Today I subwayed it up to the Bronx, got to the trail head buried in Van Cordlandt Park around 10am, soon after caught a flat. Realizing I forgot my bike pass for Metro North Rail, didn't want to risk going up to Croton then having another mechanical breakdown and having to spring for a $100 cab ride. Ended up reading the newspaper in Inwood Hill Park and when I got up, the rear deflated again - needed to be taken apart, studied, and perhaps a new tire or tuning of the spokes. Wait a sec, this is a FOOD blog, not a bike blog, sorry....

The awesomely great mid-70s weather should of raised my mood, but between the pre-leaf nude trees and the suspect mechanics of my bike, just felt depressed. The last time I was chilling on a bike at Inwood Hill was a few summers ago, depressed about my parents passing. Weird how I ended up at the same bench, thoughts swirling about the future, the past. Was hungrier than I thought when I scarfed my two homemade power bars. Riding is a great taste-enhancer.

BREAKFAST: 8am, organic corn flakes with good milk, banana, 1 bowl, hunger 4/5

AM SNACK: 11:30am, two homemade power bars, 1 bowl, hunger 4/5
Surprisingly yummy. The granola and nuts gave the bar a pleasant heft and dryness - the last round were a bit too moist to the point of sogginess.

LINNER (DUNCH!): 4pm, mixed gluten, mashed taro treasure boxes, mini sticky rice in lotus leaves, spring roll, mock shrimp in rice dough, water, 2.5 bowls, hunger 4/5
A late lunch at Vegetarian Dim Sum to cheer me up. Forgot how heavy this food is - 2 bowls felt like 5. Everything is very starchy, and greasy (in a good way) to boot. Still, unlike the typical Chinese take-away brick, doesn't leave me feeling like I just hit myself in the head and stomach with a hammer.

PM SNACK: 9:30pm, chocolate soy ice cream with 2 pieces shortbread, .5 bowl, hunger 3/5
Just felt like I needed to treat myself nicely. Funny how a sugary indulgence is synonymous with self-love.

Wednesday, April 9

Goin' Further With Granola

ADDENDA:
Went to a late morning yoga class, the teacher was a bit of a babbler (in a good way), she caught my ear when she started talking about food - how the "vibrations" of the person preparing it affects the "vibration" of the food itself - why home cooked food by a loved one is better than industrial slop prepped by an underpaid wage slave - and how saying a prayer over food can be a small corrective measure. I think the closer the relationship you have with your food and it's preparer is key to eating better, though I'd worry more about the sources of the ingredients and the care put into it, no matter how it's shaking or buzzing or whatnot.

Tomorrow is going to be a beautiful day, so I baked up some power bars this afternoon for an extended bike ride on the mountain bike up to Croton. Threw in some granola, chopped up cashews and lots of chocolate chips in. In yesterday's post about granola, my friend Reeve responded with a warning about the high glycemic index of granola. I went back and looked at the ingredients of Feed Granola, and it was interesting. Yes, the first 3 ingredients are all organic whole grains, but following there are 4 different sweeteners, from agave to brown sugar - I bet all together, it would be the #1 ingredient. So when I was in the farmers market today, I picked up a less-packaged, more boldly hippyesque package of granola, which of about 12 ingredients, only honey was the sweetener, and 3rd from last, before salt and canola oil.

BREAKFAST: 9am, organic cheerios with good milk, half a banana, 1 bowl, hunger 4/5
Despite the veggie booty, went to sleep a little hungry and woke up with an appetite.

LUNCH: 12:45pm, grilled tempeh, hijiki, kasha, curry lentil soup, water, 1.5 bowls, hunger 4/5
Went to the cafe at the yoga school after a beginner's vinyasa class, really good clean tasting vegan food that doesn't taste like dirt. The HVS would be proud!

PM SNACK: 5pm, baby spinach salad with ranch dressing, 1 bowl, hunger 4/5

DINNER: 7pm, homemade lasagne with sauteed portobello, homemade soy ice cream and homemade shortbread, seltzer, 2.5 bowls, hunger 4/5
Busted out the last major leftover from Dinnerfest, easily the best dish I made. The pasta is incredibly unctuous, the meat ragu is wonderfully textured and really has a round pork/veal/beef taste, and the spinach-infused ricotta kinda binds the two with a middle-ground texture (and a few chewy shards of the bufalla moz doesn't hurt!) I topped it with some old homemade pizza sauce in the back of the fridge and threw on some diced grilled portobello, which had to be used or tossed.

Made the soy ice cream on the fly, know B will appreciate it's presence in the fridge.

Tuesday, April 8

First Superhippy Bread, Now GRANOLA!!

ADDENDA:
The short bread has the illusion of being low sugar (1 cup butter, 2 cup whole wheat flour, 1/2 cup powdered sugar) but I had the worst insomnia last night, up till 2:30am. I suspect it was the late short bread.... had a carb-heavy lunch, aim for a high-protein dinner, try to have a sweets-free day....

The evening today brought a serious round of sugar-craving.

BREAKFAST: 10am, apple granola with good milk, .5 bowl, hunger 4/5
Found this new brand of granola during my trip to WholeFoods yesterday, looked like it may be developed for adult tastes, rather than the cloyingly sweet and industrial tasting stuff I've had in the past. Pretty good, tasted pleasantly oaty, and just subtly sweet. I guess I should go out and get some Birkenstocks?

LUNCH: 1pm, 3 samosas, brown rice, cold pumpkin noodles, cucumber salad, 2 bowls, hunger 4/5
Midtown lunch at Green Symphony with the HVS.

PM SNACK: 6pm, spinach salad with organic Italian dressing, 1 bowl

DINNER: pork chops in mushroom gravy with roasted broccoli, water, 2.5 bowls, hunger 4/5
Started marinating a pork chop yesterday that I split the long way (olive oil, garlic, salt and pepper), browned the hell out of it, then made a simple gravy in the pan by boiling up some sherry, vegetable broth, more garlic and a large pinch of flour for about 10 minutes. Used the Good Eats recipe for the broccoli. Didn't really pay much attention to amounts, just kind of threw stuff together. The gravy needs work, it was a little too thin in texture and flavor, and I should of sauteed the mushrooms and garlic before deglazing with sherry, but it was still a nice compliment to the juicy meat with a crisp brown layer.

While I was cooking, NPR radio had a story about the crap economy and how health tends to improve in bad times because people work less, do more exercise and cook at home more versus going out to restaurants. This pork chop meal wasn't quite restaurant quality, but it was definitely a step in the right direction - and the cost of the food was less than $10....

EVENING SNACK: 11pm, veggie booty, 1 bowl, hunger 4/5
Sugar cravings kind of blurring with hunger, so grabbed a non-sweet snack...

Monday, April 7

"Results Not Typical"

ADDENDA:
I will be starting Culinary School in a few weeks. My work search has come up with a bunch of freelance projects, but no regular gig. I think I'm going to slightly change up this blog - I will still record everything I eat and my feelings around it, but will also focus on the experience of being a culinary student, one who is doing it mid-life rather than as an inexperienced high school graduate. Feel free to email me ideas for a new title! "Kulinary Kicks"? "Konstantly Kooking"? "Kitchen Krazed Klassroom"? Hmmmm....

Weight this morning 230, I suspect I didn't drink enough water. My blood pressure is 131/88, which is a little high, but average for me.

I'm working on the computer and the Food Network is on in the background. The TV commercials are blowing my mind - a show about crappy diner food is sponsored by a stool softener. Queen Latifah blagging some weight loss pill, bragging how much she lost while a small "RESULTS NOT TYPICAL" appears in the corner. Menopause hormone replacement meds during a biography of Julia Child. Yes, we all want to be free...from the need to poop and being a fat-ass!

BREAKFAST: 9am, apple, .25 bowl, hunger 3/5

LUNCH: 1:15pm, shrimp curry with jasmine rice, a couple pieces of nan, onion bahji with chutney, poppadom, water, 2 bowls, hunger 4/5
Midtown lunch with Erikka after taking a meeting in the office. Food was a bit eh, but was really good company - funny how that makes most food more enjoyable.

PM WATERING: 3:30pm, 24 oz freshly made seltzer
Just blew threw almost 2 c-notes at Whole Foods, with about 12 plastic bags full of groceries hanging off of all ends of the bicycle.

DINNER PT 1: 6:30pm, baby spinach salad, lots of shards of shortbread, 2 bowls, hunger 4/5
Made a variation of the baby spinach salad with red bell pepper, radishes, scallion, cuce, carrots and left out the red onion and roasted nuts.

Wanted to use up some old whole wheat pastry flour, so whipped up a batch of short bread while doing laundry. I threw in some vanilla flavoring (which I got by accident - extract is suspended in alcohol, this stuff is in glycerin - not as flavorful) which seemed to alter the dough. Despite refrigerating for 30 minutes, the dough refused to keep any shape and ended up being shapeless flat blobs on the baking pans. Coming out of the oven, they took a wonderful light-brown sheen. On the one hand, they are extremely crumbly and fragile and I ate maybe a half bowl of short bread by picking up the pieces. On the other hand, the short bread is unexpectedly light in the mouth and the good butter I used pleasantly coats the mouth without being overly greasy. I stuck with the recipe's call for confectioner's sugar, but next time I think I'll experiment with brown sugar, get a more caramelized thing going.

I guess I chomped up the beginning and end of a big dinner, maybe I should just skip the middle, see how I feel in a few hours....

DINNER PT 2: 9:30pm, boca burger with pickles on whole wheat toast, 4 pieces of vegetable nori roll, a small handful of short bread, 1.5 bowls, 12 oz seltzer, hunger 4/5
Hunger came knocking, ate more shortbread to cut it off.

Sunday, April 6

I really need to hit the grocery...

BREAKFAST: 10:15am, 4 pancakes, 1.5 bowls, hunger 4/5
B sleeping, feeling pleasantly hungry. The good milk is slightly spoiled, so I used 3/4 instead of a cup with a cup of mix and an egg. I through in some cinnamon and vanilla to help mask the milk. The pancakes came out shockingly light and fluffy, and the slight tang of the milk was a wonderful new dimension.

LUNCH: 1:45pm. small green salad with carrot dressing, shumai, tempura, california roll & 4 pieces of sushi, 2 bowls, hunger 4/5
Sleepy day indoors with B, ordered in Japanese. Was tempted to order Chinese, but B threw a mini-hissy fit at me, which I guess was appropriate.

PM SNACK: 4:30pm, a couple of small bites of cheese, hunger 4/5

PM SNACK: 5:30pm, popcorn, water, 1.5 bowls, hunger 4/5
At the movies, too salty.

DINNER: 7:30pm, hummus with mushroom stew, stuffed grape leaves, falafel, health salad, a few olives, whole wheat pita, water, vegan brownie, a few bites of vegan cinnimon chocolate cake, hunger 4/5
Went to Hummus Place with B and the HVS after the movies, really yummy, then to Atlas for vegan treats. Had a much smaller brownie this time, as the sugar headache of the last piece of cake I had there was fresh in my mind.